Beginnings

And so it begins, another year.

To cap off and summarize 2012, I will use two words: Roller Coaster.

Holy Foshizzle, did I ever just hang on. Master's Degree, Car Crash, Small Child in High School, Moving, Tumultuous Love Affair, and then... meeting the man I want to spend my life with. Nuts.
Nutters.

Nutalicious.

And so it begins: The New Years Resolution.

To take stock of who I am and how I live my life.
To kill my bad habits.
To reinvent the way I spend and save money.
To become a cheap bastard.

Issues:

1. Too much waste.
2. Too much spending.
3. Not enough appreciating and using what I have.

My one New Year's Resolution was to not spend any money. Three days in, I suck already. I have eaten fast food twice unnecessarily and already agreed to go on a ski trip with my handsome boyfriend. Who fucking bought me back country skis for Christmas. Damnit.

And so begins the eternal wrestling of conscience of a single mother. Balancing the expectations of others. The desires of others. And wandering through it all with some element of grace.

There might be a wedding and a house purchase this year. I do not deserve either! Well, maybe the wedding, the lord knows I have had some bad man choices in the past and this one is golden. But the house? Right, after two years of living like I made 70000 dollars a year while I made 20000 and went to school... Who is to say if they will even give me a mortgage?

This will be my daily commitment to reduce the money I spend. I will look at it all recorded. Scrutinize, without pity.

And so it begins...